Artist Statement
Disordered Perception comes directly out of my own lived experience with mental illness, not as a single feeling, but as a shifting set of perceptions that can change the way the same world looks, sounds, and feels. I wanted the piece to behave the way perception behaves: unstable, layered, and dependent on viewpoint. Nothing about it resolves into one “correct” reading. When you move around it, it becomes something else: architectural, organic, protective, exposed, sometimes playful, sometimes uneasy.
The form holds openings like rooms or cavities, but they aren’t meant to be literal spaces. They’re closer to internal spaces, places that can feel safe one moment and claustrophobic the next. The textures act like signals the brain tries to organize. Patterns repeat, then break. Surfaces shift from smooth to carved. Edges feel controlled until they suddenly don’t. That push and pull is intentional. The work isn’t about labeling conditions. It’s about showing how perception itself can become altered, how the outside world can feel distorted, distant, overwhelming, or strangely bright, even when nothing “out there” has changed.
Airbrushing glaze was essential to that idea. It let me build atmosphere the way emotion builds, gradually, in layers, with soft transitions that can still carry intensity. The color moves like a mood shift, quiet gradients that don’t stay neutral for long.
